Last day of being sad and lost.
Tomorrow is a new day, and life goes on.
I wish there was an off switch somewhere within me so I don’t have to feel so sad and lost.
it’s one of those days.
Sometimes I’m scared that no one will ever fall in love with me.
I saw your unrequited love today.
I wondered if that is still the case.
Suddenly I realised just how far we have all come.
and that sometimes growing up also means growing apart.
So I accidentally came across some old messages on my phone last night. I smiled a few sad smiles as I considered the “what could have been”s the messages should have lead to.
If I could turn back time, I would have taken a leap of faith and went for it.
I wouldn’t have let my pride, insecurities and preconceived ideas get in the way of a chance at happiness.
So what if he didn’t earn a six figure income, and that he doesn’t come from a similar cultural background and that he preferred his skinny jeans over skinny ties? He made me laugh like no other and we just..clicked.
I guess it all comes back to my fear of failure, of my unwillingness to take a leap of faith.
I forgo the opportunity too often simply because I listen to that voice in my head saying that I will probably fail if I try. Even though nothing is certain, and that not trying warrants automatic failure.
Love is a gamble, but I still don’t have the courage to play the game.
i need to sleep more
and love a little bit more than i do now
Life shouldn’t be this bitter, really.